A Heart-Wrenching Letter From Atul Subhash To His Son Before Dying: 'Can Sacrifice A 1000 Of Me For You'

A recent news that sent shockwaves across India is of Atul Subhash. Bengaluru-based techie Atul Subhash died by suicide. Atul Subhash left a 24-page note behind, along with the video, explaining the reason behind his extreme step. An FIR has been registered against four people in connection with the suicide of 34-year-old, Atul Subhash. He accused his wife, her family members, and a judge of harassment, corruption, and extortion.

Atul Subhash Letter To His 4-Year-Old Son

Letter by Atul Subhash to his son.
He committed suicide after being harassed by a biased judge & his ex-wife in Bengaluru this morning. pic.twitter.com/nrZSx4LSs2

— Rishi Bagree (@rishibagree) December 10, 2024

Atul Subhash’s letter to his 4-year-old son broke everyone’s heart. The words in the letter are heartwrenching and one can feel the pain from the words in the letter of Atul Subhash. Here is Atul Subhash’s letter to his son, word by word.

“Son – When I first saw you, I thought that I could give my life for you anyday. But, sadly, I am giving my life because of you. I don’t even remember your face now till I see pictures of you when you were 1 year old. I don’t feel anything about you now except a tinge of pain sometimes. Now, You just feel like a blackmail using which I will be extorted more and more. Though it would hurt you, the truth is that now you feel like a mistake I made. It is just sad that this shameless system can make a child a burden and liability to his father.

I have met a lot of alienated fathers, most of them speak of similar feelings when they are being honest. Few emotional ones die everyday (figuratively) trying desperately to be a part of their children’s lives. The system wants to do this to every father. I am not going to do it. Till I am alive and make money, they will use you as a tool to harass your grandparents, uncle, and me to extort more and more money from me. I can’t let all this harass my father, mother, and brother unnecessarily.

Not even for you. I can sacrifice 100 sons like you for my father. I can sacrifice a 1000 of me for you. But I will not be the reason for the harassment of my father. I doubt that you will ever understand what a father is. But I know exactly what a father is. He is a privilege to have. He is my ultimate pride. He is the one I would always try to be. He is the one who a son wants to challenge. He is the one who a son wants to make proud. A father-son relationship can’t be written and even probably understood.

But it is pointless to explain now. You will not know me. I wish I could have been with you. I wanted to pass on so much I understood, learnt, and knew. Your inheritance was not money but the values, love, violence, sacrifice, culture, history, intellect, knowledge, rationality, irrationality, work ethic, family, friends, individual sovereignty, freedom, creation, destruction, will, vigor and spirit of a very lucky and fully loved man that was to be passed to his son and what is so very rare. In the last 3 years, I have tried to understand the changes happening in the world.

I used to think that women empowerment is probably good and benign like most of the educated men. But It is not so. This movement has gone rogue. This idiotic thing is not going to stop at anything before destroying everything of value and it must end. Some old privileged elitist uncles and aunties might try to weaponise the existing systems to make a wife equal to god and husband a slave in marriage to fulfill their so-called stupid progressive agenda, that is not how it is and never will be. Those poor men who buy this idiotic philosophy might survive longer but they become slaves who neither feel peace nor live like free men.

Some feminists say that marriage is a tool of patriarchy to enslave women. I don’t know if it is true, but I surely know that it can never become a successful tool to enslave men. It won’t work. All man made and derived systems that have experimented and dared to wage war on man and his blood are going to end one way or the other eventually. After all, What has survived in this known universe that has threatened this apex predator and his blood?

Men wisely created so many systems like God, religion, morals, laws, society, marriage, etc to stop themselves from acquiring that feared persona of a destructor which allows prosperity to flourish, but everything evil born in this bubble shall get destroyed for a new phase of creation to start. It is just a matter of time, all these unjust but seemingly good intentions will lead everyone to hell.

Oops, sorry for going on this tangent, I hope you don’t have to find this extreme of your being but don’t hesitate if it is indeed necessary, my son! It exists in you for a reason and has its utility. I am able to kill my body because of this great, pure, passionate, and purposeful violence that resides in every man. The only thing that matters is the purpose you use it for.”

This letter broke me. Hope the strong laws will be made and he gets justice. If you or someone you know needs help, call any of these helplines: